ok i went no where tonight and did nothing. i was going to clean but i ended up watching all the musical scences from chitty chitty bang bang. but ya i was thinking a real lot about "fake tj". ok well you know how i said before that he likes someone? well ya i think that i really should of said something to him about me likeing him you know? and if i would of tried to talk to him and get to know him better then who nos what could of happned. well who really nos but its like i really do like him a lot and i dunno hes just so damn hot. but ive noticed that the past 2 guys ive liked had the gayest reasons ever. especially tj..

K- me   T- tj

T- i really like you.

K- really?

T- ya

(he hears a noise)

T- what are you doing?

K- walking down the steps to go on the computer and tell my friends

T- no wait..dont go and tell them yet theres more i want to say

K- ok then say it?

T- i dont want to go out with you

ok that happened like way back in october but im never going to forget it i really liked him ya no? and ugh just for him to do that to me..i no its probablt pissing people off but i really dont give to shits. i bet it pisses the people off that have never had a boyfriend or liked someone enough to understand that shit. but anyways i really dont no why im writing this. but i still think about what tj said to me alot..i was crushed when he told me. ya no for once i actually tried to get him and it didnt work and i think that that is the reason that i wont say anything to "fake tj". but like the topic type deal thing says.. "i guess i dont deserve anyone". ok and im going to leave on this..

FUCK GUYS!